Another Furball 4 HNT

Yes it is another pic of one of my babies and me. I took this one as a screen capture from the iSight on my Mac as I was blogging at home. Please take not of the mirror ceiling . . . NOT our idea so please don't get kinky ideas. LOL. Come See Us being hAAppy on this fine HNT HERE!

I grew up in a broken household. My dad was in daily blackouts and I learned to love him by feeling sorry for him. My parents would argue frequently and violence would break out. I went to a place within to feel safe. Over the years as a child I discovered safety in loving my animals. They did not hurt me or make me feel scared. They needed me and made me feel that I had a purpose.

This carried onto my adult life. In fact, I went to school to be a Veterinary. I worked as a veterinary technician for 7 years. I went to school and almost finished my undergraduate classes. I became lost in life, the merry go round stopped and my avenues of numbing did not work anymore. I seeked false serenity in food and alcohol.

I went back to school because I wanted to make more money. I wanted my career and money status to define my self worth. I thought it would complete me. Today I realized what I walked away from. I made less money, was on my feet all day, delt with emotional clients, and so on. I was so happy, I had true purpose and so much more. I miss it all. This is ok. I am very gAAteful where I am at today. The team I work with know I am in recovery. I laugh here often and I like the moral here. I cannot take this for granted or I will always be searching for the fix tomorrow.

Just for today I choose to live in the solution and embrace that which is right in front of me. Did you feel that? I am embracing your love. ;)