How u wanna look at it . . .

Depending on how you wanna look at it, today is the Day of my Last Drunk (God, please help me to keep this by giving it all to you) and/or the Eve of my 1st Sober Birthday. Last year, this day, I was living in darkeness. Trapped by the voices that haunted the spirit of my soul, I was lifeless but wanted life so desperately. Never could I phantom I would be at the place of inner peace and serenity I encompass today.

My weekend was beautiful! Saturday Mel and Alexis had a party to celebrate their natal birthdays. So many people were there, sober and clean, having a grand time. My fall was catastrophic last year this day. In fact, I had many, but this was the day that FEAR showed up and was ready to engulf my entire being. These people, many at the party, are the ones that have picked me up, loved me despite all of me, and helped to give me life. They continue to do this today.

todAAy I have grAAtitude and am thAAnkful:
- for all the Hugs at the party, real tight true Hugs.
- that I said yes, after saying no 3 times, to playing Twister
- to God for introducing me to so many of his children (that includes you bloggars too!!!!!)
- being madly in love with such an un-selfish giving person. A bonus to being sober!
- the phenomenal gift of Sobriety & the Fellowship
- 4 Hope
- the fun, after fighting it, building the CSS & HTML structure for the LotaBurger website
- my career blooming, a result of working the steps and sobriety
- that today I made the big payment to pay off my truck. Thank you Mitch for helping me do this! I love my little softtop Rav 4!