I Listened 2 The Right Voice, It Was Not Mine
After Boot Camp last night I was driving home, then I heard this voice in my head that was not mine. I listened . . .
I am learning to trust the right voices that echo in that thing that gets me in trouble. I heard a voice telling me that I should go to a meeting. I listened to God's direction and went to the Womens Stag at Casa. I have not been to this meeting in months. The secretary was in relaspe mode, the speakers, I felt, spoke mostly based on opinion (hah, and this is my opinion) and I began walking away from that meeting feeling worse than when I got there. So I stopped going.
And so God is awesome when I listen and do. The speaker last night was LIT!!! A good lit. She celebrated 20 years and spoke from the Big Book steps 1 - 6. I believe that God speaks through people, and I was to be in that chair, at that time, to hear what I needed to hear. Sometimes I sit at meetings and what I hear is all that crap in my own head. I am still learning how to, um, ignore it -- it is all spiritual process I must remember.
Today I am so blessed that I have this Dz. I can NEVER take a drink again. Wait a second, ok, I can drink again at any given time but I could NEVER drink SAFELY again. This is my truth. I have not hit the rock bottoms that many speak of during meetings. However it is all relative. My rock bottom was enough for me to take action, I was desperate enough to seek a different solution that was other than my own. I know if I enable the drink back into my life there is no more God and there is always a rock bottom beneath my rock bottom.
todAAy i am grAAteful & thAAnkful:
*Step 3
"Made a decision to turn our will (What I Want) and our lives (What I Have) over to the care of God as we understood Him."
* I got to see Mary, my house manager while I was in sober living, take a 4 year cake
* The Fellowship that allows me to see my Truth
* That I can listen to the similarities, not the differences of those in the fellowship
* All the hugs I got last night from my sisters
* April, my little sober sister (with the most contagious energy). We shared the Garden room at Casa together. She, along with Alexis, helped me to discover my God -- to abandon that fear of 29 years which prevented me from having a God.
* Jazz and how it transmits in my emotional state
* Of course Mr. Incredible, Budda, Asia, Basa Boo, Nic and my old lady friend Olive
* SSG. Eric LeClair and all the Elite Fitness Bootcampers
* That it's FRIDAY
* The Sobriety Society , thanks Scott along with dAAve
* All of you. You help to ignite the light in my recovery.
11 Comments:
I love it... its good to hear
You are shining brightly today. Thanks for sharing.
...cheek to cheek...
me like jazz too
(you might wanna check the link address to the SS)
You are such an inspiration with sharing your journey from the dark side to today , you are so much brighter and happier...!!!!!
Thank you for sharing~
The dark side...geese..do you think I have watched Star Wars too many times? You know what I mean.
Have a fab' weekend :)
Shannon, glad u like the tunes. Soon I will change this to have the user play it at his or her convience for it can get disruptive when logging into a site.
Thanks dAAve for the 411 about SS! Can I hire you as my editor? Hehee! It should be working now. I got copy and paste HAPPY and over pasted the link. DOH. Jazz is sweet -- cheek 2 cheek (scott) with a cup of Jo, it is Heaven.
Tab, I too am an obber Star Wars child. I would have to confess Mitch is more of an oober than me -- sometimes we do Star Wars marathon watching in the background while working. We are always quoting stuff from them -- :D
Have a GREAT weekend everyone, I will see you this weekend in SS.
I just love to hear your optimism and positive feelings. Have a great weekend!
This is something to think about; there is no bottom, because we are just one drink away from picking up were we left off. If there is a bottom mine would be death.
Awesome stuff.
I see you,
JJ
I love your optimism and spirit in general. You are one awesome sober chick!
Watching your boogie still makes me giggle.
I'm in heaven too
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