SIA

The SIA meeting that my sober sister starter during Decemeber has grown. It started with only 2 to 3 of us. Now, there is a good group of attendees. Self Injury is very common amomg alcoholics and addicts. I am seeing it in adolesence, little babies not even 18 yet. They sit, head down, so broken and detached from life. They should be living the excitement of youth, of opportunity, of unconditional love. Instead they are lost, living without hope, trying to keep their head above the water -- trying to hard not to drown. This is how they stay alive, cutting is a way to confirm feelings, emotions and pain so intense the body must be sliced. We all know this, a method to take us out of self.

I have been sober longer than I have been abstinant from bulimia and self-injury. I have had slips of both during this first year of sobriety, but am aiming towards progress from all as a whole. What I know is that I do not feel so hopeless as I did when I was active in all 3. Today I have a head full of my make-up, and a Creator that is helping me escape this entrappment one day at a time.

todAAy i am thAAnkful & grAAteful:
- that this year, on the 4th of July, I have my freedom (I was in a recovery home last year)
- Mel D and the similarities (even if they are sick) that we share
- Mitch and all of our animals
- Animal Planet and the company of my hyper cat Asia, she luvs watching this with me
- the pink slip from Toyota to my truck -- it is mine now!
- the Holiday weekend
- that I am a woman
- my experiences
- the World of the Fellowship and God
- year 2 of sobriety
- all of You